The first thing I ate on day fifteen was a roll. A soft, sweet Costco roll. You know the kind. No butter, no jam. Just the bread. It was dizzyingly delicious. And so much easier than spending 15 minutes making a smoothie or washing and cutting vegetables. Nothing has ever tasted so good. (Except for every cheeseburger ever. And all ice cream.) The evening of day fifteen, I had Panda Express with my sisters. Warm, greasy chow mein and orange chicken, followed by peanut butter/cake batter frozen yogurt from Golden Spoon. I know this is so thoroughly expected that it might sound cliche, but it all tasted so flavorful. And magical. Like I'd never eaten anything before.
On days fifteen and sixteen everything was heavenly. Cheese. Salsa. Meat. Especially meat. And I got full incredibly fast. After about a third of my Panda Express, I was stuffed. And I stayed stuffed until the next day.
But there was also guilt that came with eating things that hadn't been part of my fourteen days. Most of me knew it was unrealistic to continue eating just fruits and vegetables indefinitely, but I think part of me was hoping that I would acquire self-discipline of steel and would snub all non-fruits-and-vegetables food for the rest of eternity. Immediately after the fourteen days, it felt like if I wasn't forcing myself to be extreme that I was failing.
But the dust has settled. And I have found some middle ground. I've eaten some ice cream. And some Twizzlers. And plenty of normal meals like sandwiches, chicken, and soup. But I've also eaten way more fruits and vegetables than I did before. The fourteen days forced me to figure out manageable ways to eat fruits and vegetables because, if I'm to be completely honest, I don't really like them that much. They taste weird. A lot of them have weird textures. And I've always had this weird belief that fruits and vegetables make me more hungry rather than fill me up. So, I do lots of blending. I recognize that they can satiate hunger. And I accept that I will never be able to eat bananas.
I'm not sure exactly what I was trying to accomplish in the long-term with my fourteen days. The simple result is that fruits and vegetables are back on my radar. And it prompted me to add "health" to my blog labels. It may just be in my head, but I think I feel better for it.